Many people these days are feeling the psychological and physical attack from those who are not at peace, not happy and have themselves been shaped by abuse as normal. They call this today the ‘new normal’.

There will not be a new normal no matter how hard it is trying to force our world into servitude and powerlessness mirroring their own. It is not really about us or them, it is about the darkness (absence of self love) in all of us that has been shaped by forces that originally were to anchor the light/dark dichotomy on the planet and in the universe to provide a experience of this or that. This anchoring was to enable a ‘separation’ so that consciousness, which we momentarily tap into connecting all, sometimes referred to as ONE, can experience aspects of the greater whole in separate states of consciousness. This greater awareness looks back on aspects that have separated from the ONE, is the reality behind this drama we call life.

When we are born as babies we are still part of that oneness, we see the world entirely connected and not separate. Overtime babies learn to separate as they become more and more aware of this and that. Yet in our purist form we are pure positive energy that knows not the dark. No matter the stories many like to tell us.

I watch the narratives and I can see the seeds being planted of division to stir conflict. I reflect on the mindsets that enjoy fooling the masses and seeing them suffer as if toys to play with but no felt concern for the reality on the ground as many disassociated. Until you sit empathetically with another (who is you) when this person is deeply crying as her son or daughter is on ICE trapped by synthetic opioids produced by a cartel that is part of the governing structure profiting from pain, until you can do this you won’t be able to connect that her weeping is your own. Every mother is your mother. I would ask what went wrong for you to push your pain away believing it is another?

I reflect on the overt and covert violence pleading innocence and the greater good reflecting the image of the narcissist, who appears the great saviour but inside hates what is ‘soft’, ‘kind’, ‘gentle’ as it is the very part of self suppressed, shutdown by other voices shape changing humanity into something remote and unfeeling.

I see the puppeteers manipulating, deceiving, rorting the public trusts and I sit and reflect on such emptiness, such poverty that is greater than my own as a homeless person with no income (at all). I feel richer in spirit, richer in love, richer in hope as the real abundance that is not measured by monetorised value but inherent and inherited as part of the human nature realising the beauty rather than the beast.

I have had many attacks against my life but in subtle, quiet and psychological ways. It took me a long time to work it out as it is done in a silent way where the victim is blamed and unwittingly perceived as ‘less’ or ‘unequal’. I grew up knowing I was equal so I was unable to see the real core violence that was directed at me. I am a communicator and this can be used against a person by those who believe dark is the light bearer, when it is the perceived absence of light (pinched off) from their consciousness.

As a trained economist I see the structural violence against those labelled as ‘poor’, ‘deplorables’, ‘ethnic’, ‘colour of skin’, ‘ageism’, ‘disability’ and can see these ones are unable to see the gift in diversity but instead seek to amplify themselves as superior. This inferiority complex is masked to the one promulgating these silent crimes or wars against the civilisation as it drags them down using films, video games, media to shape their thinking into more cruel outlines that dismiss empathy as ‘motherhood’ rather than a human skill that is sensitive to the pain or joy of others. I grew up with values that accepted people as they are and in Australia egalitarianism was the norm. We were all at the same income level. There was the white Australia policy but that was created by those in power not the general public. We have been influenced to discriminate, isolate, attack those deemed different as the society hasn’t been taught that maturity is solving your own problems and taking responsibility.

I came to see the misogyny’s was indeed a reality as the men who have denied the feminine in themselves (softer, nurturing side) have to hold down anyone they deem as ‘weak’. I had a family member who believed crying was weakness. When I taught peace in schools I explained to the children that tears remove toxins from the body. So as men ‘suck it up’ so they are not humiliated by other men, they increase the toxins in their bodies. This is why men mostly die earlier to women. They have not been taught to value both the feminine and masculine in themselves and this imbalance drove them to drink, drugs, sex and orientations to seek pleasure but not happiness.

I see the failure of successive leaders and influencers in the shape of the ‘strong male’ pretending social care and social responsibility, who have their own agendas going and profit personally from high office. It is evident democracy was a front but not a truly embodied internalised knowing that all have the right to free speech, the right to be human and to share their lives with their community. Yet there are those who want to control the human from the cradle to the grave as if this is a statement of success, confirms their superior status and enables their needs to get met at the expense of billions of people who deserve to live lives over and above the minimum wage.

Today I see the hypocrisy, the false teachings, the gaps in my own training in economics and market research and the lies that were taught to me that the market was a rebalancer, was to distribute fairly utilising competition and demand and supply signals to ensure efficient distribution of resources. I see this as a farce as CEOs of multinationals were empowered through the stock exchange and business connections to strategically coordinate control via so-called free markets. This works in tandum with the US Federal Reserve or our Reserve Bank who control the money supply and can create conditions of inflation (reduces real wealth) or recessions (we had to have they say). All manipulated to create wealth on some level for a cohort so removed from the mainstream society they are barely recognisable to us.

These stock exchanges were to create a market which is really a casino for gamblers addicted to winning to feel that ‘success’ to be better than others and access the wealth and status they crave. In the casino called a stock market, the players raise money from those they know, shares, yields, arbitrage and future options so they can play their war games in another theatre of winning and losing. They strategically buy up under performing companies, or start ups, or those in marketing channels. The conditions for collapse can be orchestrated by inclusive capitalism, rising prices to initiate a fall in the market prices where traders ‘sell’ and ‘buyers’ can enjoy bargain basement prices. Suddenly the market rises and they see the yields skyrocket in windfall profits to feel the rush of being a ‘winner’. It is the game of win/lose and is played by the manipulator not the one with true merit. I see it as money for nothing and your chicks for free (or whatever entertainment).

The stock market, today is called the Securities and Exchange Commission, in my view is used to garner power through mergers and acquisitions to buy up as much of the market including the marketing channel, to control production, distribution and retail impacting pricing and the fates of other companies who may well be in the market out of personal interest and building their own fortunes based on merit, but find themselves priced out of the market due to prices being lowered (through the size of multinationals) so the competition goes broke. It is largely anti-competitive and uses market power to control markets and the collective fate of billions of people.

When I was at university globalisation was touted as a ‘good’ when in reality it is about control by the few over the world. It is a group they lived in privilege but do not know the real struggle of life outside their glass bubble. They have not had to go through the cut and thrust of a unjust life at times, where they have to compete to survive. Instead what they want is handed to them providing they ‘do the right thing’ by the power brokers in their families and elite communities.

I have moved in some of these circles and observed. My first observation is that I didn’t want what they have. I saw a contrived world that was fake and people keeping up appearances, not showing the true hand or face. They talked behind backs (gossip) and had their wild parties but I noted true love alluded them. They had no idea of the deeply connecting love that makes life worth living and connects the the very soul many in this cohort deny exists. I observed they had their assets – houses, property, butlers, maids (servants), companies, peer group and they had invitations coming in all the time as others wanted their money. I saw into relationships and how they are married for bloodline or bank account, seldom for love. I noted they weren’t happy as happiness was never about assets. I saw they believed this is the elite and successful strata but knew of no other way as they hadn’t truly known real freedom. It is one thing to be able to fly a lear jet to any place in the world without going through passport control on a nod, as they are above immigration and national laws, but it is another to really take a chance and live the real life where need equals want and there are no favourites.

I’ve lived a life where no-one handed me anything. I had to pay my way for along time. I had to struggle like everyone. I didn’t have any desire for a career or success. Thankfully I didn’t have parents with ambitions for me but let me find my own way.

I hated reading and didn’t read until I was 17. I had to hold my stomach at university to read the most boring books to understand complex subjects I had no real natural disposition in but intuitively was guided to learn. I saw myself as average intelligence and average looks.

I have had a very challenging life with both highs and lows. Everything I earned. I never owned a house and never desired to. You can’t take it with you when you are gone. As an Australian I had to make my own way. I had no help, no loans, no support but just a ability to pick myself up and try again. I didn’t blame anyone for my life or see any handicaps, it became one journey after another.

As a secretary, being a female, that door opened. I had no idea where my talents lay as I never had any encouragement or anyone telling me to find them. I just moved through hundreds of workplaces, listened to the conversations, made friends, went to lunch, and learned different roles in this fake world called work. I was not lost on the separation of age groups – school – work -retirement as community was kept apart. The males were in my day on top of the pile and were the image of success. I had to move through the quagmire of sexism that was unconscious as I was never seen to amount to anything only whether I could be marriageable. I famous man (whose name remains nameless) when I worked with his secretary, made the comment that I wasn’t married and sought to replace his secretary with me. He tested me out one day by her not being there. I ended up writing poetry not transferring names from his address book to another. I used the time to deeply tap into my humanity. I didn’t know in those days they had their security and was being watched (the norm today). Thankfully he didn’t employ me as it was not my path. Life put me in the situation to observe his life and his connections and how the rich and famous curry favour, whilst the rest of us work very hard for very little and are to be grateful for any morsels that fall of the table. Such inequality I observed. Hard to fathom from my perspective.

I have seen a lot in my life as I travelled through so many experiences, with so many diverse people (not one the same), and from privilege to poverty, from highs to lows, from country to country. Too many for me to write in this blog. It gave me enough insights to see the folly in this game, how self defeating it is, so much blood spilled in the name of money when none of it was real. The only real things was when you had authentic moments with people who had some depth and an ability to discuss the real world rather than the matrix all around us.

I know freedom today. I am free to think my thoughts, no matter designs for mind control. I am free to live my life my way without others trying to hold me down or back. I am free to see the world in any way or angle or lens I choose to look through and inspiration will take me on wings enabling me to see further. I am free to decide what it means to me as that is a universal rite that need not be enshrined in any laws. I am free to see the good or the bad depending on power or powerlessness. I came to realise real power is to see beyond the folly and realise we all get to choose and nothing happens by accident. What you do to another returns to the self.

I am the observer in this life and I am questioning all of it. I will never weaken to hate as that is a denial of reality. We have to face life warts and all and maintain our steadfast integrity to be who we are – that is, loving, kind, truthful, beautiful and filled with the promise. I personally do not hate anyone who is part of this larger agenda, I see them more clearly these days and feel they will be confronted by the illusion they have created and called real.

No human is less than you, not one is inferior and they have lived many lifetimes in many expressions including the elite. We have all been around this wheel of fortune and misfortune and seen it all. So like my own life where I have been a traveller, over lifetimes we are all travellers. So the temporary illusion of this lifetime can cultivate our focus but in reality we have been all of it – man, woman, child, ruler, servant, military commander, priest and on and on diversity goes. So for me, I am stepping back more and more as I see the untruth in so much of this to return to ONLY LOVE IS REAL. That is what I re-member.

May all find peace in a real way, find forgiveness, take responsibility of your part in this drama, and return to your real self and release all that no longer serves you. Now is the time to decide who you are and live it in authenticity. The soul does exist and we have been all of it. Remember these words all ways so next time when you are tempted to disrespect someone know you are disrespecting yourself. Or sometimes I say ‘you are me in a different frequency’. I disrespect myself if I disrespect you. I choose to love myself and I choose to love you. As only love is real. Love is the unity all are seeking, love is the success all believe they are after, and love is the pure joy all ultimately are trying to cultivate. When you let go of greed as need, discrimination, past hurts and forgive it all, then something miraculous happens, you remember you are free to choose and magic truly happens.